Hey guys! I'm kinda bored and I liked the webpage Steph made so I decided, why not?

Hope you have fun I got loads of things to look at. Send me anything you want me to put on the site. I've got funny things, some deep things, and everything in between. Remember life is good if you make it that way.

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03/28/05



2:26 PM

After re-reading this I think I sound like a nut & it really doesn't even make a lto of sense, but whatever.

From now on I want to say what's on my mind. I don't even know what that would mean by that. I would say maybe something like "I really enjoy you company" if that's what I mean I guess. I can't even make up examples to what I would. I just know that I'm stuck. I've been in a rut. I've made myself come to believe that where I am presently is where I need to fit when I don't fit here (wherever here is). It's obvious. I need to move on & I want to but where do I go. What I don't understand is why the humans feels the need to "fit in" why can't we be different & why do we keep our emotions to ourselves. It's like we're all hiding the same thing from everyone. We are all hiding the quirks and what we consider odd about ourselves when everyone has them so why make yourself something you aren't. Why are we all changing ourselves to fit into some fake idea of what is "normal"? I don't know, why do you even try when you know you are destined to fail? We only have this one life and the funny thing is we spend most of our lives just figuring that out. That all we have in life is our life & then we try to make something of it. Some people don't even realize this throughout their whole life. They just wing it, play follow the leader, even if they do something wonderful, they just don't it because they think it's what they are supposed to do. That's what's supposed to happen. They are just fulfilling the prophecy. But what is the purpose if u don't try things, I mean even if you know you're going to fail, why not try it anyway, just in case, ya know? But then you waste your life the one thing you have on trying things when you can just think about them and logically rule them out. And when you start trying things you get into this rut, you end up believing that this is where you belong even after you try and try again and that's not true. We just want to be happy, to love and be loved. & it would be so much easier if we were just ourselves & completely open & honest, but in order for that to work everyone would have to be honest & people just aren't so... where does that leave us. It gives us 1 answer to 1/1 trillion question but no1 willing enough 2 make it a reality. Once we figure out that this life is it, do you realize how much time you've spent wasting away in front of the TV. It's a virtual world. It's not REAL. Yet even after we get this we are drawn rite back into our old ways but every once in a while we get this desire to be what is rite. We are our own aliens. The human race is freakish. We don't need any extraterrestrials. What other species is going to quest9ion there own existence like this? How come? I don't know, do these questions make us crazy or genius? If we knew the answers I suppose we would be genius but since we don't I think we're crazy, but if I'm crazy then why does this make so much sense (or does it just make sense to me?), & why would you still be listening or reading or whatever, if you are still listening or reading or whatever. No more time is spent in the real world, whatever that maybe. I really just need to shut up now.